Journal Entries!

I have a project due this Monday and I have chosen to do journal entries. I have chosen as my character to be a nurse in the Civil War because that is the time period I am learning about. So I am a nurse in the Civil war in the battle of Fort Sumter, writing letters to my mother and my sister. I need tips. I feel as if I am getting a bit too deep in my journal entries. It would be great if you would leave a comment and tell me what you think about my entries. Should I change anything. I would love to here your thoughts. Please Comment.

Dear Mother and Lydia,

How are you doing? I am doing as well as can be expected. It is very scary over here. There is a lot of violence. I am a nurse caring for soldiers. I am running in and out of the battle of Fort Sumter carrying the soldiers to the hospital. I have dealt with a lot wounded soldiers and many of them have died. That is very scary for me to see. It is very upsetting to me also. I have heard a lot of gunshots and a lot of shouting. I am missing you both a lot. I want to come home. Father and I love you both so much that we send you much love. We worry about you a lot. Father and I are very tired, spiritually, physically, and mentally. Lydia be good for Mother and be as helpful as you can be. Would you please send me lots of Bibles for the soldiers? Love you!

Truly yours, in the truth,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

I am doing well. The Fort Sumter fields are bloody and filled with burnt flesh. It smells like urine and gunpowder. Thank you for sending the Bibles so I can hand them out to my patients’. Father is doing well and we miss and love ya’ll lot. Many more soldiers have died. Lydia, although sometimes war is necessary I hope you won’t ever see the horrors. I wish this stinking war would end. I want to come home and never go through this again. I have not washed; there are no creeks or rivers over here. I am as filthy as can be. Father sends you much love Mother.

Truly yours,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

How are you doing? Father and I are doing as well as we can under the circumstances. I am giving my patients’ the Bibles you sent me. The battle of Fort Sumter is messy and dirty. I am proud of Father, he is a wonderful doctor. At certain times we are scared and extremely tired. As I said a few weeks ago our physical, mental, and spiritual stability needs prayer. Please pray for us. Both father and I send you much love.

Truly yours, in the truth,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

How have you been? We are doing fine. Father and I are worried for you and have you both in our prayers. I hate this battle and Father and I are wanting to come home. The battle of Fort Sumter is really scary. We can’t wait to see you at the end of this stinking Battle. We Miss you guys and love you so much. Please pray for us as we are going through these hard times through the battle of Fort Sumter. We are dirty and tired. Father and I are lonesome without you both. We rather be with you instead of here in this icky horror place. We are still sending the bibles out and many have become believers, which is awesome. I am sore after picking the wounded and dead soldiers back to the clinic. I haven’t slept a lot because I can’t get my mind of the days I am having and how scary it is over here. Father is tired; he has not slept a lot because his patients are in so much pain. I feel so bad for the soldiers and for Father. You are not going to believe what we have been through. You are going to be proud of Father and I. I just don’t want you to have to go through this hellish place. It is Hell over here. There is a lot of violence. Remember we love you both so so so so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Truly yours,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

How are you doing? We are fine. We are scared, worried, and hungry. We don’t eat much when we are busy. We are tired. The battle of Fort Sumter is wild over here, screaming cats and dogs. I am really tired. I don’t sleep much because I am worried that something bad will happen to me. Please pray for safety. I am not feeling so well. I have a sore throat and it bugs me. I am struggling through the wounds and the deaths that the soldiers are having to go through. It is so hard for me. Father is sad as well. I am having a hard time carrying the soldiers to the clinic also. But the reason for that is because my back is really sore. I have met some kind women, I say hello now and then. I don’t have time to chatter away about my days here with them. But I sure would like to. At night when we are put to bed, us women are usually crying, writing letters to our Families, or trying to get sleep. As for me I spend time wring you letters, because I can’t sleep. Father and I send much love to you both. We miss you a lot.

Truly yours, in the truth,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

Today got intense in the battlefield. As I was helping a breathless soldier, a bullet went past my head and I had to step in and pick up the breathless man’s gun to shoot other soldiers to save myself. It was the hardest thing to do. I was in the middle of the battlefield and I couldn't’t think quickly enough of what to do to safe myself, so I just picked up a gun and started killing other soldiers. It was a life and death situation. You got to understand and I hope you understand in what situation I was in. Mother I wish you were with me I could just cry myself to sleep. Mother please keep me in your prayers as I am going through the battle of Fort Sumter. I do not want to have to go through that again, but if I have to I will. Father and I love you so much.

Truly yours,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

I have been so sad for the past few days. After killing soldiers I have been scared and I am picturing the people in my head that I killed. I am scared to death. I have been having nightmares and I am waking up in the middle of the nights and running to father for his security, love, and affection, and I am relying on the lord to forgive me for killing these men who have families who are weeping for them. Please pray for my broken heart. Father and I are missing you lots. We love you both so much.

Truly yours, in the truth,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

What is up with you guys? Just to let you know I am still under a lot of stress after killing the men. I am always praying every night for God to forgive me for doing a horrible thing but it was for a good reason. I also pray for him to keep Father and I safe in every way he can and for comfort. It was a life or death situation, God has to understand me. I told him in my prayers that I felt that way and I just had to do it. I miss you guys a lot. I really hate this ugly area over here in the battle of Fort Sumter. It is so dusty and filthy. I am getting more worried every day. Please keep Father and I in your prayers. Father and I love you both so much.

Truly yours,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

Are you guys okay? Father and I are doing well. We are lonely without you. We miss you lots. Father and I love you guys so much. We want to come home. Mother I need you for comfort. I am really sad. I am horrified over what I did. How do I get rid of those thoughts? Oh Mother please pray for me as I am going through a huge struggle. Father is upset as well. Pray for us both. Lydia the way you can help in this situation is if you would please be good for Mother. Help Mother around the house for me to.

Truly yours, in the truth,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

Guess what I had to do again? I almost got killed again, so I had to start shooting. I have a gun with me at all times now, so if I am in a dangerous situation I can just start shooting away, which is a really hard thing for me to do. I am sad even more. I ask God to forgive every time I shoot someone and I just cry out to Him because I am so sorrowful about my choices. I feel like a bad person. I feel as if I am a murderer but I am in a situation between life and death so how could I be doing wrong? It is huge. And God says to not murder. I am fighting for life. Am I Mother? Which side is God on in this war; mother the North or the South? Please keep me in your prayers. I am so sad. I do not know what to do anymore. Do you have any suggestions for me? I love you so much. I am missing you more by every minute. Father sends much love to you to Mother.

Truly yours,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

I am not doing well at all. I am having more nightmares of the soldiers who I killed and I am really scared. What do I do? Father cannot really do anything to help my situation but it is not his fault. I am really lonely at night, and I do not know how to help myself. Do you have any suggestions for me? Father is really worried for me, and he does not want me to be going through this. He is also stressed because he does not know how to help me through my struggles. I need help and you are the one who is always there for me when Father is not around so you are helpful through my hard times. I need lots of comfort and answers. I am sobbing at night, I cannot hold all my fears and sadness inside me. There are other women who are sad as well. I want to come home Mother. I could just Scream.

Truly yours, in the truth,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

The other women are feeling my pain. We have been sharing our stories about here in this stinking war. They just want to scream as well as I do. All the ladies are lonesome. Mother we all have the same feelings. We miss our family members. We are exhausted, lonesome, and dirty. Some of there family members are in the war, and I go to feeling bad again because who knows if I killed their family members.. They said some of their family members have been killed and I do not know if I did it myself. Oh I am so scared. What do I do? I am nervous even more because I put more thought into it. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t want to become an enemy of there’s. Oh no, I am in such big trouble. Please pray for me. Father is sad for me as well. He does not want me to be in this mess. Father loves you so much mother, and he loves you Lydia as well. Mother I love you so much, I love you to Lydia.

Truly yours,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

How have you been? I have figured out that I have killed one of the woman’s family members. I told her exactly what happened, and I was in and she understood perfectly. I told that I felt horrible and that I was in a tough situation. She accepted my apology, which is the good part. Well that is partly off my chest. I am still sad. Father is way to busy to help my situations. I would hate to bother him. Today was a bit rough too, like the past few days have been. There is a lot going on over here and I am stuck in most of them. Please pray that I can get out of those horrors. I have been shooting soldiers all day, because it is insane over here in the battle of Fort Sumter. I hate having to kill the soldiers. It is problematic for me to have to go and do that. Please pray for safety. Love you and miss you a lot. Father misses you and loves you as well.

Truly yours, in the truth,

Elizabeth

Dear Mother and Lydia,

Mother I was in an insane position again today. I always have to take my gun out and shoot the other soldiers, and boy do I hate it. It is scaring me. Please pray for safety. I am worrying a lot even at night. Father is really scared for me, because he he does not want me to have to do that. He really hates that I am in that condition.

Truly yours,

Elizabeth

How was it? Was it too sad? I need your suggestions on this. Please leave a comment!

Truly yours,